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Don't be a stickler!

Even though it is very recently that I have come across the word cognitive dissonance, I believe that I have always been influenced by this psychological phenomenon throughout my life.

The complexity of this world stupefy me most of the time. The objective reality of this world is simply more astounding and intricate than the subjective beliefs and philosophies that I hold.

Hence, whenever I happen to come face to face with a reality which contradicts my ideologies, I don't try to stick with those. Either those ideologies get modified to accommodate the newly realised objective reality or thwarted off to give space to a better ideology.

And this is the reason why I believe that being a stickler to a fixed ideology is not the wisest thing to do in a world which always holds facts which might come out stranger than fictions.

Although sticking to a fixed set of ideas and beliefs helps one to evade the cognitive dissonance and form a definite personality, but can those ideas and beli…
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Yeah You see Not always that I write like this But then people come And then throw their piss And hence, happens this Witness how they broke my bliss Do read this piece, please At least you will not miss Won't dismiss the abyss Will come to know the gist And why I wrote like this
Okay here I go Silence please
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